before i blog.. i have to thank MADELENE(i know i spelled it wrongly, though i still dunno how its spelt). She became my listening ear and my mother at the same time. Her lecture was damn wonderful and it was like a miracle ! i instantly felt better after a talk with her =)

woke up at 815 today when i'm supposed to reach school at 800. well guess i was too used to waking ppl up and when suddenly no one to ka chao to wake up. reach school at 9 today.. totally missed the SIP briefing.. lucky got sandy to help me take attendance.. THANKS SANDY ALOT. Reached lab at 900. 3 hours, i stared at the computer screen. and i realised i stared at blogs for 3 hours. constantly shuffling between FUNs blog, my blog, and her blog. It was like a walk down memory lane. Instantly i felt all so emo again.

Started to play puzzle fighter from 12 to 3 at school lab. Didnt get caught and all. And no one ka jiao-ed me. after which, finally had the mood to do work. went to lab and finish up my codes. MY DAMN GROUP MATES. I BET THEY NEVER EVEN DO YET WTF!! IF DO LE THEN SHOW ME LA!! DUN TELL ME " OH I LEFT IN MY LAP TOP" or " OH MY THUMB DRIVE SPOIL" FUCK U ALL LAH! GO FUCK SPIDERS LAH!! damn angry with them lah.. how the fuck am i going to complete my assignment like that..

After which went club room to slack again.played daidee and puzzle fighter till like 9 plus. then went to eat dinner. nana seemed so tired today. Well i think its my turn to care for her. She's always been caring for me. NANA cheerup ok ?? i was so glad that i told nana i was ok. and i thought i was ok and recovered already.

but when suddenly.. she talked to me. and the feelings juz came back instantly and that hatred yet love feeling reacted. I just hate it. It spoils my day whenever i experience that. and its official. she doesnt like me but likes him. heard it right from her. well i'm already feeling abit of difference from the last time when i'm around him. i really dun wan this passed relationship to affect my friendship with him. but wat is this feeling when he is around me. that green jealousy and all. i really hope nth will happen between me and him and we'll still remain friends.

and i fucking hate that song that she send me. i dunno y. i juz feel like i'm being mocked at when i hear the song "goodbye to you". well i really wanna get out of this shit. i wanna have the mood to study. please let me forget her by friday. if not, let me concentrate on saturday and sunday monday and tuesday. to be able to study for my test. after which, the feelings come back i really hack care le. and i really wanan forget her before my bday comes. i really really want a happy "happy birthday".

anyway.. nana cheer up.. i'll be there for you still =) ganbatte for your assignments sweetie!!

didnt really had time to think of a poem today =) so i'll just give you the chorus from "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" by Flipside feat. Piper

All I thought was a dream (make a wish)

Was as real as it seemed (happy birthday)

All I thought was a dream (yeah, make a wish)

Was as real as it seemed

I made a mistake!