today i got shot right at the spot man..
i got reprimanded by a senior of mine,
though i hate to admit it,
watever he say is DAMN RIGHT.
but i just dislike his sudden random straight forwardness.
but also good la huh? get right to the point..
and for a moment,
i felt that bright CHANG YONG suddenly just popped out,
but then it went back to hide again.

WELL whatever i have said/am about to say now might not make any sense to anyone,
if u understand, then u are intelligent =)

during my army life,

that blur and dull CY has taken over me,
BUT
i used to be so smiling and happy go lucky,
and even brighthening up ppl's life.

i'm seriously an introvert now T.T
i bottle up every single thing inside,
and tend to be very petty at stuff..
BUT
i used to be saying whatever that's on my mind,
and brushing off any negative comments with laughter.

i'm like aimlessly wandering here and there,
waiting for ppl to give the command to do,
trying to be lazy whenever i can.
BUT
i used to be so enthusiastic in anything i do,
being a leader and motivating ppl to work along side with me
doing whatever i can to make everyone happy.

I REALLY WISH TO FIND BACK THAT OLD CY...
cos this CY NOW is DAMN FUCK UP!

but someone tell me how?
cos my stubborness and pride has taken over me.
i guess that's part of army eh?

-now you SEE WHY?
cos i'm CY.