been soo soo busy. now, the only thing's that's on my mind: GEFANG gefang and GEFANG. concert is on the 10dec, and i'm practically spending everyday practising for it and yeah brushing up.

i'm like only singing a song and playing some piano accompaniment for another song. but still, i'm like not ready. and i just chose a song that practically killed me. a duet that max out my range, and with so many harmony( which i am really bad at, for god knows what reason. )

u know, i used to think i was a talented musician,
and i could catch stuff ezier and better then most ppl.
but ever since i stepped into gefang,
i'm like "WTF, why am i not getting this right."
"WTF why am i such a slow learner."
and sooner or later, i realized,
i get stressed up by myself,
by firstly, not getting it right
secondly, mayb due to my high self expectations for myself when i'm around music.
and i cant help getting stressed.
its like a reflex or natural reaction of when u want to excel in a certain something, which in my case is music, but u fail to produce results.

but i really really learnt alot from Gefang,
made alot of music lovers friends,
and of course, friends that i would term as life-long friends.

for awhile, my improvement in Gefang went stagnant.
and you know i make an effort to improve on stuff,
but i haven really seen significant improvement or stuffs that i would have success in working on,
which makes me worry.
its even more worst when ppl around me are improving tremendously.

but recently, i must really thank this person, Cassandra PEK CEK.
and i have msg dedicated to her: "

"working with u has really pushed me forward.

u thought me how to "fang rou" which literally means smoothen my voice.

u were very patient and help me with my harmonies which i kept forgetting.

i offer my greatest gratitude and appreciation to u,

becos for the longest time,

i have been working on harmonies and trying so hard to not be a rocker singing a ballad voice,

but i dont seem to get it right.

and u came and showed me how its done.

i sincerely thank u so much :D

now i see hope on me improving and i guess,

this is where i will stop being stagnant,

and start improving again."

this has really been a fruitful event Vivace 2 for me !