i realize something today..

ever felt so confident,and suddenly, as the time flies by, you feel inconfident due to you realizing something?

I used to be a crowd pleaser, meaning, i can brighthen anyone's day up anytime.
But that was due to how immature and simple minded i have been i guess.
Now i came to realize lots of stuff and with the responsibility and pressure from my parents, i'm really crumpling under.

And you know as a child, its always your parents doing stuff for u, beating you and all. But now i have grown up and its time to contribute to the family. Like helping out with the house work, doing ALL THE RIGHT THINGS! which means, no more computer games, lesser outings, and lesser time on your own.

Throughout my years, i've really been independent. Apart from the courses they sent me to learn, i'm all about by myself. I have never really spent time with them when i was little, maybe they were too busy at work. And now, it has turned into a habit of not wanting to like go out with them. Its like even holidays, i dont even want to go.

But i realize, i really need to start to bond with the family, help out and contribute. The hardest is still... the first step.

Growing up isnt as easy as it seems eh?

i know, i'm just stubborn.

-now you SEE WHY?
cos i'm CY.