Was looking through my friendster profile on how my poly life passed.
Lots of ponder coming through my mind now.
Reflection time.

Realized i was sorta a playboy,getting lots of crushes and all.
I was like " OMG that is me? "

Well its kinda true. I've lost a few female friends cos i didnt figure out my own feelings.

"That young but childish heart, yearns to love, but doesnt know what love is abt."

Resulting in lots of shyness between both parties.

Guess that was the attention-seeking of the pass, who wanted everything that he liked, to be close by, not pondering abt what tactic to use. Just plain rashness, chionging into it. Going by plain gut feel.

Guess that was what happened to all 3 ex-es of mine. In the end? One month and they are GONE!

Well i used to think that i have found and understood myself. But recently, i've been so down on confidence. I have changed to another person, till the point i dun even know who i am. But is it a change for the better? i hope it is.

All i know now is that, i'm damn quiet and i hide lots of stuff to myself. Even in a group, i'm to myself only. No more that outspoken person, who's so bubbly and cheerful everyday. Why the sudden change? Even I DO NOT KNOW!

CY's gotta self explore!

-now you SEE WHY?

cos i'm CY.